Chapter 3

　　Chap3

　　MILA

　　I woke up this morning to my mothers screams, lately Ive been sleeping more than usual, Im feeling too tired and Im late, if my fears turn out to be true I dont know how Ill be get out of it, Im so afraid that I wont be able to take a pregnancy test, but enough is enough I no longer want to live in this doubt and in this situation, we are two adult people and I dont I did not do it alone, if this baby arrived we will have to assume it there is no other solution

　　I get up to get the pregnancy test I took at the pharmacy two weeks ago, I go into the bathroom and I follow the instructions on the instructions, now all I have to do is to wait, I feel like these minutes are as long as hours, when I take the test I was paralyzed at the sight of the result, shit, how could this happen ? How am I going to explain this to Hilanne? Speaking of him, his plane is about to land, I have to pick him up

　　I try to disconnect from everything that is going on and I go in to refresh myself before going out to join my mother in the living room

　　Me trying somehow to smile: hello mum

　　My mother: hello sweetheart, are you sure youre okay?

　　Me: yes why wouldnt it be ok?

　　My mother: I speak according to the living deaths head that you have

　　Me: Dont worry, I just slept badly and I think I didnt digest what I ate last night

　　My mother: must be her since I heard you throw up this morning

　　Me trying to hide my surprise a bit: yes, but its ok now

　　Im really ashamed to lie brazenly to my mother but, I dont think shes happy about this news since she doesnt really like my relationship, I dont want her to put pressure on me to bring Hilanne home

　　My mother: where are you going? Arent you supposed to be on vacation?

　　Me: yes but I have to pick up Hilanne at the airport, Im already late her plane lands soon

　　My mother: arent you having breakfast?

　　Me: no, Im not very hungry this morning

　　She gives me a murderous look to which I avoid paying attention so as not to cause trouble this morning, I give her a kiss, pick up the key to my car and I set off for the airport

　　When I arrive I see him waiting for me at the entrance waiting for me I think his plane has landed rather

　　Hilanne Morel

　　My plane landed earlier, so Ive been waiting for Mila for a while, I was already starting to get frustrated when I see her come from afar, when I see her smile all this tiredness and frustration I feel disappears, shes so beautiful that usually, she wore blue jeans, with a gray sweater, to see the tip of her breasts erect in the sweater, she probably has no bra accompanied by her flesh-colored pumps, when she sees me she flashes a smile that brightens my day, I get up and walk closer to her take her in my arms and kiss her like theres no one else around

　　Mila: I see you missed me a lot

　　Me: as always my heart, and seeing the ardor with which you responded to my kiss Im sure you missed me even more

　　She just smiles at me without saying anything and we walk towards her car, I have the feeling that she is not as bubbly as usual, it seems that there is something changed in her and has I look a little elsewhere, but I dont delay on all these details when she turns to me and offers me this beautiful smile, I install my suitcase in the back of the car, and we head towards my hotel

　　I am Hilanne MOREL, I am a 32 year old businessman, I have several hotel chains on both sides of Europe, I like beautiful things, the proof is the girl next to me from the wonders of the world, I think I could not have dreamed of a better life than the one if, I came back to the country after a trip that lasted a month, the woman next to me is Mila WILLIAMS, she has 25 years old, she manages her real estate agent company here in Paris, in addition to being beautiful, she is a very intelligent woman that I have by my side

　　When we arrive at the hotel, we go straight up to my private floor, I want her too much, I missed her too much, when I swipe the magnetic card I literally jump on her, I stick her against the wall , kisses her everywhere and runs her hand through her sweater to caress her beautiful round and shapely breasts, I want to devour them

　　Me: you keep taking the pill dont you?

　　I notice her tensing up, it only lasted a few seconds but it didnt escape my notice, whats wrong with her this morning?

　　Me: you know you shouldnt get pregnant right now right?

　　Mila: what if that happened?

　　Me a little surprised: you know very well that I am not ready to take on this kind of responsibility at the moment, we have all the time to think about having children

　　Mila: you always talk like you dont want to have kids

　　Me: Im not, Im just not in a rush to change diapers, or have to wake up in the middle of the night to a baby crying, I have other plans for us my love

　　Mila with tears in her eyes: dont worry you wont have to put up with all this, let me unpack your suitcase

　　Me stopping him: sweetheart I thought we were on the same wavelength

　　Mila: Me too...

　　JADE

　　Today I think is the worst day of my life, its the day of my sisters funeral, and to think that Im going to have to say goodbye to her forever, forever, Ill never go there again see you again with all my life, my God I want to die too, the only thing that keeps me standing is my nephew, its for him Im fighting all these minutes and hours, its for him I dont let myself go and always stay on my feet, without him I think I would have lost all reason to live

　　A few hours later

　　My aunt: come on we have to go home now

　　Me wiping my tears: no I want to stay a little longer, I dont want to leave her alone

　　My aunt: but shes not alone, shes with your parents

　　Me crying: sniff….yes they left me here alone in pain and left to my own devices

　　My darling: from above they watch over you and they havent left you alone, they are always there in your heart, whenever you want to talk to them you just have to put a hand there and close your eyes, they will always be alive in your heart, come on lets go

　　Me: no aunt, I want to stay a little longer, would you take care of the little one for a few hours please?

　　Aunt: You dont have to ask, take all the time you need

　　On these words she turns on her heels and leaves me there, I lie down on the grave of my sister in tears

　　Me whispering why did you leave so soon? Sniff...sniff...why did you leave me? You orphaned Angel mother, dad, mom why did you abandon me? Why do I have to go through all this, ah sweetheart, sniff… Sniff, my GOD am I cursed?

　　Lane behind me: no you havent

　　I get up with a start, when I turn around thats what I thought the devil is visiting me, he has the nerve to come here

　　Gianni handing me a handkerchief: sorry Im a bit late

　　Me going into a rage: keep your dirty handkerchief I dont need it, what are you doing here?

　　Gianni pretending to be surprised: it has nevertheless been cleaned and ironed

　　Me losing patience: what the hell am I asking you here

　　Gianni taking a serious look: Im coming to attend your sisters funeral

　　Me: You come to rejoice and see the work youve done right? Now you can leave

　　Gianni: At no time did I wish for your sisters death, since I dont see what her death brings me as more

　　Me: Anyway I never want to see you dragged around here again, since your mere presence melts away the angels who must watch over my late sister and my parents

　　Gianni: as long as you banished me from this graveyard and from the whole town

　　With that he lets me plant it, goes to meditate on a grave, puts a bouquet of flowers and comes back to me

　　Gianni: I want you to take me to see my nephew, so Im waiting for you and the entrance

　　He lays a bouquet of white roses on my sisters grave and turns his back on me to leave, hes got nerves to lay flowers here?

　　I take her rose and throw it to her

　　Me: keep your damn flowers, I dont want to see you dragged around here, you better go back to where you came from since I dont intend to move from here

　　Gianni: take all the time you need I have my whole day...